I am an immigrant — A recent arrival!

I am in a state of disequilibrium!

I am in a state of mourning — can I regress?

I am going to sleep for hours, I am not lazy,

My ego is crushed, hence the disorientation.

My competencies are shattered, don’t laugh!

If I go back what will they say?

A fool returning from the land of affluence.

A self-imposed exile, a punishment for what?


A struggle, a desire of belonging — to whom?

A pretention, a false front, a determination to prove and die

A mystified mind, a self-created illusion.

A search for reality in the midst of Maya

A feeling of powerlessness in an aggressive world.

A late awakening after burning the boats.

A sudden sadness changing to clinging depression

A split personality and schzoid living

A self-generated inevitable action, a Karmic force

A cosmocentric awareness and existential suffering.

Article extracted from this publication >>  April 5, 1985


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