I am an immigrant — A recent arrival!
I am in a state of disequilibrium!
I am in a state of mourning — can I regress?
I am going to sleep for hours, I am not lazy,
My ego is crushed, hence the disorientation.
My competencies are shattered, don’t laugh!
If I go back what will they say?
A fool returning from the land of affluence.
A self-imposed exile, a punishment for what?
A struggle, a desire of belonging — to whom?
A pretention, a false front, a determination to prove and die
A mystified mind, a self-created illusion.
A search for reality in the midst of Maya
A feeling of powerlessness in an aggressive world.
A late awakening after burning the boats.
A sudden sadness changing to clinging depression
A split personality and schzoid living
A self-generated inevitable action, a Karmic force
A cosmocentric awareness and existential suffering.
Article extracted from this publication >> April 5, 1985
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